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> Read the job ads in the paper today and cut out three jobs to apply for > – now all I have to do is to make myself sit down and write the > application letters… then lodge the benefits form on Tuesday before I > see the pdoc… go to the pdoc and see what he has to say this time… > then tell him that I’m not coming back… > Put this thing back into its box again and nail the lid down… and try > not to think about it so that it won’t come back… which means no more > self-indulgent crap like my poetry… no more staying up all night in > the Cafe… no more hiding away in front of the computer when I should > be looking for work… and no more newsgroup… no more self-indulgently > compulsive behaviour all round, really…

just make sure you arent surprised down the road.  it may be your life will end up a mixture of both things eventually. but good luck either way anna > Take care everyone… you’re good people at heart, and you deserve to be > well… > — > Karenji/Kaji – dragon/human Shifter depending on mood… > *New Dragon Code COMING (eventually) > *ICQ 55339701 > *http://www.labyrinth.net.au/~gsj/Index.html > *Beloved of Sparky, Sister to Wodash > *Wingsister to Viriatha, Tanith, Hespa and Amberynth > *Lover of Chocolate, and Occasional Giver of Chocolate Points

– ‘the softest of all soft things overrides the hardest of things….’ — i ching "blessed am i to dwell in this beautiful temple"

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I hear you sister!  I read this newsgroup everyday for probably 4 months waiting to get better… and progress was slow…. . then I just got pissed off at my p-doc and moved to England! (from Canada) Now I am living in a run down Hostel in London and feeling great…. the change has helped immensely (with depression, and it’s made me take benzos without thinking — and without guilt) I am now in the mood where I feel like I have to go really crazy for doctors to take me seriously.  So I will do everything I can to induce a response …. (meaning… if you sit at home you have far less symptoms so doctors don’t know what to treat… if you go into teh real world, you have more symptoms, so more things for your doctors to treat, so they’re more active) You should do the same!  Get on with your life…. give yourself a little push, try something new.  I *never* would have thought I would feel this good over here, alone, away from my family, but going to a youth hostel and being with people, and just hanging around and a change of scenary — I don’t think any drugs could be this theraputic alone. Anyways my BP is probably very mild so perhaps you should do the opposite  … But I thought some people might want to know that a change of environment can do wonders (I never would have believed it) Crazy Phil (anyone know where i can get accomodation in London??) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >Been getting signals from several directions about this, and they all >point in the same direction – obsessing over my state of mind is not >good for me… I spend all my time looking at myself under a microscope, >and waiting for signs that I’m really going to crack up… my mother >says that my problems were the result of the meds the docs gave me, and >I just have to wait… and she’s probably right, because the mood swings >have got a lot smaller… no more anti-depressants plus time oughta see >them gone entirely… only question is how MUCH time? >What’s left is just me indulging myself the same as I always have, only >I’m not a child any more and I can’t act like one… it’s time for me to >pull my head in… get myself back under control and stop being so >stupid… go back to the Real World that I’ve been trying to run away >from for the last four months and face the music… >Read the job ads in the paper today and cut out three jobs to apply for >- now all I have to do is to make myself sit down and write the >application letters… then lodge the benefits form on Tuesday before I >see the pdoc… go to the pdoc and see what he has to say this time… >then tell him that I’m not coming back… >Put this thing back into its box again and nail the lid down… and try >not to think about it so that it won’t come back… which means no more >self-indulgent crap like my poetry… no more staying up all night in >the Cafe… no more hiding away in front of the computer when I should >be looking for work… and no more newsgroup… no more self-indulgently >compulsive behaviour all round, really… >Take care everyone… you’re good people at heart, and you deserve to be >well… >– >Karenji/Kaji – dragon/human Shifter depending on mood… >*New Dragon Code COMING (eventually) >*ICQ 55339701 >*http://www.labyrinth.net.au/~gsj/Index.html >*Beloved of Sparky, Sister to Wodash >*Wingsister to Viriatha, Tanith, Hespa and Amberynth >*Lover of Chocolate, and Occasional Giver of Chocolate Points

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Been getting signals from several directions about this, and they all point in the same direction – obsessing over my state of mind is not good for me… I spend all my time looking at myself under a microscope, and waiting for signs that I’m really going to crack up… my mother says that my problems were the result of the meds the docs gave me, and I just have to wait… and she’s probably right, because the mood swings have got a lot smaller… no more anti-depressants plus time oughta see them gone entirely… only question is how MUCH time? What’s left is just me indulging myself the same as I always have, only I’m not a child any more and I can’t act like one… it’s time for me to pull my head in… get myself back under control and stop being so stupid… go back to the Real World that I’ve been trying to run away from for the last four months and face the music… Read the job ads in the paper today and cut out three jobs to apply for – now all I have to do is to make myself sit down and write the application letters… then lodge the benefits form on Tuesday before I see the pdoc… go to the pdoc and see what he has to say this time… then tell him that I’m not coming back… Put this thing back into its box again and nail the lid down… and try not to think about it so that it won’t come back… which means no more self-indulgent crap like my poetry… no more staying up all night in the Cafe… no more hiding away in front of the computer when I should be looking for work… and no more newsgroup… no more self-indulgently compulsive behaviour all round, really… Take care everyone… you’re good people at heart, and you deserve to be well… — Karenji/Kaji – dragon/human Shifter depending on mood… *New Dragon Code COMING (eventually) *ICQ 55339701 *http://www.labyrinth.net.au/~gsj/Index.html *Beloved of Sparky, Sister to Wodash *Wingsister to Viriatha, Tanith, Hespa and Amberynth *Lover of Chocolate, and Occasional Giver of Chocolate Points

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